I'm in some toil here. I've got a girl that I originally tried to hook up with, who only saw me as a friend, and wants to keep me around. We talk alot, hang out alot, and have for a while, most if not all of 05. I'm still very attracted to her, and her viewpoint towards me hasnt changed. Heres my problem, shes really open with her sexuality and likes to talk to me about it. I always tell her I don't really want to hear which she takes as a bad thing. I've told her about how I didn't originally try to be friends with her, and she knows where I'm coming from even though she plays it down. It's been leading to some arguements recently about how she wants to know why I don't view her like the rest of my friends and I don't know what I should say. She'll tell me about some guy she fucked or some guy she thinks is attractive and how she wants to do stuff with him and it hurts to hear it. I know that I can't let her know that, so I try my best to contain it, but in the end she can always tell that I am weirded out by it. And I guess I should add that its not -just- that its her talking about sex, part of it is that it kind of weirds me out talking to girls about sex who I'm not hooking up with in general. I really like this girl, and have accepted that its not going to work out as more than friends, but being friends is really hard sometimes. She always wants to get to know more about me, more about who I really am, like the really personal stuff that most of my good guy friends dont even know. It worries me having her know me so well when I like her, and know that it will never be more. Ofcourse I can't say that, but its really confining and difficult. I learned a while ago that my failures with women were directly related to not being open with them, so I have been trying to not lie to her as much as possible. I think this is only hurting though. Not that this is all I care about, but I should point out a few things so that my position can be more clearly understood. I am 21, in my 4th year of college, no real girlfriend experience to speak of, arguably a virgin, part of the broly crew, fairly well dressed and an overall fun person. I guess all I am saying with that is that I am a fairly normal athletic college guy outside of my limited female experience. She has some cute friends, not many as some girls don't get along with her (why I always find these types of girls is always confusing to me), but her having cute friends isn't getting me anywhere nor is going out with her getting me anywhere because she gives off that "we're just friends, im still looking" vibe that doesn't help me much with other girls. Another thing is that shes kind of a financial burden for me. For example if we are drinking at my apartment or something, its always me who buys. Or if we are getting high, its me who buys. Sometimes I'll end up buying her food while out or something - sometimes solicited, sometimes not. I'm not exactly poor for a college guy, but not exactly rich either - so its not like I can really afford to be paying for another person, especially one who just wants to be friends. To me this says a couple things. One is that she still views herself as a girl first, friend second. I say that because a guy friend of mine wouldn't think of letting me pay for him like that, because hes a friend. But when a girl allows that, it says to me that she still wants me to see her as a female. I don't know if I should try to repair this situation, let her know that we just aren't like other friends, be open, lie, cut her off, etc. I guess I am really just looking for some objective takes on the situation as my friends have heard the play by play for months now and aren't really in an unbiased seat. I'm not looking for jackass answers, and to help that I will not be giving cliffs.