It's strange. Prior to winter break, everything was going excellently in my life. All my plans were in place, all the pitfalls I'd forseen had been plotted and evasion planned. The framework was in place for my future endeavors, and I felt confident that the greatest number of my challenges had been passed. I even got straight As in every course I'm registered in. Then comes christmas. My aunt dies Dec. 27th. I dont find out about it until the 28th, and that night my cousin/landlord decides to evict me, because he wants more money. Meanwhile, due to government inefficiencies/screwups, my student loan application got rejected. I'm in the middle of getting it all rectified, however the deadline for my tuition fees comes up on the 19th, and I spent the entirety of my savings, plus my RRSPs, plus a $2500 loan to repay the old student loan from 6 years ago (which was in default) to bring me back into good standing so that I could be eligible for further funding. I had to add two courses, because I'm in a very unique situation with my classification as a student (under my classification, I shouldn't even be in the classes I'm in; my straight As bought me exceptions), and I had to add two to be able to meet scholarship requirements for next year. This leaves me with no money to pay the remainder of my tuition, and insurance is also sending me a bill for nearly $1K for an accident I had last year that they failed to tell me they'd paid out on (against my instructions). To top it off, my car inexplicably developed a coolant system problem, right during the -35 cold snap that hit us, overheated, and last I looked in on it, it was smoking on the side of the road Just the other night, my cousin (brother of the one who's evicting me) tried to choke me. I havent seen him since, but he's been coming during the day and moving his stuff out, and he took everything of mine that wasn't locked in my room (bookcase, some movies he'd borrowed and hadn't returned yet, etc) To top it off, somehow I've gone from friendly terms with a waitress at the campus bar to her having one of the bouncers try to throw me out. Considering I didnt see or speak to her over the break, I'm completely dumbfounded. That's about the summation of the newest obstacles facing me. I've found a new place, its much closer to the university, and seems like a great place, but I dont move there for another month. (Feb 14) The student loan issues are going to get resolved, its just a matter of time. I have a $1K overdraft that I can dip into for the insurance, and I can let the tuition go overdue, and it'll just cost me extra fees and such, so long as I pay it before the end of the semester. ------- On a conscious level, I understand that most of these problems are already on the way to being solved, if not solved already, but I still feel like there's an incredible weight on me. I'm having difficulty getting to bed when I should, which is shorting me sleep (have to get up at 6am for class, often dont get to bed until 1:30 to 2am). My social interactions are getting stunted. I find myself picking inane arguments and pissing people off. I also seem to have developed a fixation on the thinning hair on the top of my head I'm also having a very hard time getting interested in anything. I'm in a perpetual state of boredom. It doesn't help that the house is a pigsty, thanks to above cousin, who felt it was his right to make a mess of the place and not clean up (that argument is what led to the choking). Any thoughts/suggestions?