I had a rough family life growing up with an abusive drunk father so I had to learn things myself most of the time, I never really counted on him for much of anything but recently I began to realize that sucks. I wish he hadnt been the way he was and maybe its part of a result of how im fucked up. The last time I lived with him was probably close to 3 years ago, I think maybe 2. and the reason we dont live together is because we got into a fight and I ended up with a gash on my head and he had a broken jaw, needed stitches and had some constant migrane and my mom saw it and called the cops and they took him away. Ive seen him a couple times and hes a dick, hes fat now and doesnt really work anymore (used to be high up in cameco) and since he "left" he broke into our house and took a bunch of stuff, including a bunch of my savings money. Took my brothers mutual fund out for himself and ended up stealing my new sunfire from my work, which eventually got me fired for being "unreliable". That was pretty shitty. Im not going to get into details of the car, but it was a piece of shit, it was an 04 sunfire gt that I got brand new. I made the payments on it, but it was in my dads name (lease) because I wasnt 18 at the time. Anyways, when he took it (him and hid brother) they also took my fuckin cell phone and my cash for the night, along with a debit machine from dominos (where I was working) and my stereo. Eventually when I got the car back (we had his GTP, we offered a trade because my mom didnt want the gtp and I wanted my sunflower back) I had already gotten a new cell phone and stuff but I still didnt have a job. Shit went on for a long time, its been like 2 or 3 years now since hes gone liek I said, and my mom ended up keeping the house (with the aid of her sister-in-laws brother, who she is now seeing) JERRY! JERRY! but he got all the shit inside it. So fast forward to more recently: Ive been dating brittany for almost 1.5 years and weve been living together since may. Im 19 and I was managing Homers Pizza on 8th in sask until it was bought out by this damn iraqi guy who fucked everything up with the business and fired a bunch of people and hes now not even buying the place for sure... WTF. So basically I just deliver pizzas on the weekend when I make some pocket cash and work at Minacs(apple) during the day. Its alright and it pays the bills but not as well as they should. BACKGROUND: The sunfire ended up being a lemon and broke down all the time, GMAC ended up taking it back and leaving me with a subsidized bill of which my grandmother covered until I have some money, and Ive been paying her back slowly and I live in a big house with like 6-7 people all renting this fuckin-nuts house when he works at the diamon mine where Im the "Manager" of the house, I end up paying the bills and taking care of almost everything for slightly cheaper rent. So moving onto the "landlord" aka the dick that works at the mine, to make a long story short hes fuckin me around with rent money and im not collecting enough to pay all the bills, and hes threatening to kick me and my gf out for "stealing" from him. Anyways, he parties all the time when hes here, and I godda be up before 7 every morning for work and its really frusterating to try to sleep. He breaks shit all the time too and he just says to take it off the rent... blah blah blah useless details, bottom line he owes me money. Me and britt decided we were getting outta there, so found another place across town closer to where I used to live in an apartment, its pretty nice and im gonna be glad to get outta here. Its gonna cost me near 1800 by march first to get all bills payed up, damage deposit and a full months rent britt just started a new job, so Im kind of supporting her till she gets back on her feet, shes in overdraft right now and I found out that he credit card is almost maxxed out too. Now if I do all this im gonna not have much money for anything, Im planning on buying a car (since mine is broken and im trying to sell it, ive been driving her car) but im not gonna be able to. I went from having quiet a bit of stuff to next to nothing pretty quick, and I like to buy stuff to treat myself and britt every now and then. Anyways, to sum that part up, im gonna be broke to end up happier. **** So the stressful part is I started a new job with alot of potential, but I dont really like it, its supposed to be hard at first, with all the new training they had us do and stuff, and it takes alot to learn everything. I work 2 jobs, only about 55 hours a week, but still more than enough, and Ive been trying hard lately to cope with everything, but Ive been relying on weed quite a bit. Its been driving britt crazy and she keeps telling me to stop or atleast cut down and ive been bitchy when she tells me that but ive been saying in march things will change, itll be just us, no noise, no fuckin roommate messes or fuckin drunk landlords to deal with and things will be better, and I wont need to rely on weed so much. But I havent promised anything. I want to though, I graduated in 2004 and I only started smoking weed in grade 12, I was no A student but I got through it all, but after grade 12 I just kept smoking more and more, infact Im high right now but whatever, im coherant enough to post all this in a pretty sensible fashion beit long. Ive been noticing alot of girls lately though, britts definately good looking and its no fight to get laid, but its pretty much the same thing and we do it so damn often it just feels like I wanna try something else (which is a different post in here, so I dont need to continue much) but I feel guilty looking, because britt means everything to me and I dont want to hurt her, but as everything else is, its hard. I miss the whole flirting thing in my single high school days and I cant remember much of it anymore, but I dont want to feel guilty for being human. So thats another thing on my mind. Money is another, I owe money everywhere and I havent even signed anything to loan me money. I support my best friend kind of too, anytime he needs money im there to be able to lend it to him because hes not too good with money and he owed me upwards to 850 bucks right now. He had a rough time with not keeping a job, but I got him a job at minacs and hes doing pretty good. I dont know how to wrap this up, any idea on what I should do? How to help cope with stress? It seems that Im always in charge on things and everyone relies on me. That was fine before, but its hard enough being 19, living on your own, supporting your girlfriend, partially supporting your friend, working 2 jobs, not having a car and BEING 19!. Fucked.