I just cannot take it anymore. i have no control of my life at all. i am going to a crappy community college taking only 3 classes. i am not doing too bad compared to my last year when i flunked everything. however i have not met too many people there and have not made any friends there. i am working at a job that isnt too bad but i am getting tired of it because i basically sit there most of the day and talk to my boss cause we dont have much to do. i barely have any friends to hang out with. i basically hang out with 3-4 people and usually never in a group. my gf and i broke up 2 months ago and i have gone on 2 dates in those 2 months and that hasnt worked out. i am going nowhere and i dont see things improving. i am going to transfer to another community college and see if that works out better. its just that my friends dont want to do anything other than playing sports or just talking and eating. i want to go out meet more people, go to parties meet girls so i can get a gf. i am comparing my life to my ex who is having alot of fun. she is busy with her life and barely calls me but i see her at work which gets to me. i am just so worried that i am going to be stuck like this. having nothing to do and sitting on my ass all day just going to class and work cause i have nothing better to do. i have been depressed lately as well. i have planned a 2 day trip to new york with my friend and we are leaving tommorow but i am not too excited. i just feel down and dont care about going. the thing that scares me is i have been like this for as long as i can remmember. i usually stayed home, was a loner in high school excpet the few friends i had. i missed out on the high school activities cause i was a loner. i met my ex who is in high school who is carefree and enjoys her life and it got to me knowing that i didnt do anything. now its the same in college i am missing all the fun cause i screwed up my grades really bad in college cause i was depressed. basically i want to meet new people, make more friends go out and meet girls and date girls but i am not sure if i can do it and how to go about doing it. will changing jobs help me? i want to be more carefree and stop thinking about my ex but with the time i have i cant stop thinking about her. something triggers in my brain and its so hard to take out and block those thoughts.