I am falling back into a depression. I had to make a tough decision recently(though I feel there was only one choice in the matter), and had an abortion. Part of it b/c I'm not ready to dedicate my life to a child or have those ties to someone(especially since the relationship is still newer and I'm still trying to learn who this person is), another part is that it was a suprise and I had been doing certain legal and illegal things while pregnant and definitely thought that couldn't have been good for the situation. Since it's happened I have fallen back into this funk. I have no confidence, no self-esteem, I am starting to resent my SO, not trust him(i don't know why) and am basically falling apart. "Breakdown" by Tom Petty is a good way to put it. I was curious, with all the people out there, if anyone who has gone through this, had a friend/lover go through it or just in general knows how it feels to be down in the dumps about yourself. I'de like any advice on what you can do to build yourself back up, learn to overcome and pull myself out of this before it gets worse. I miss the old me, the old happy me, and I want them back. Just not sure where/how to start. And I want to save my relationship before I runaway from it all(which I have been known to do) Any Help????????