Not really sure where to begin with this post, it's gonna be a long one and I don't really expect anyone to read it all, but I just need to get a bunch of stuff off my chest. I'm posting on this account because I have friends who know my other account and would rather not have them read all of this. I'm a 22 year old male, college student with good grades, 6'0” 155 lbs. In 2 more semesters I will be graduating with a degree in philosophy and a minor in statistics. I've changed my major about 5 or 6 times now and I'm still not sure what it is I'm going to do with my current major, but at least the classes are interesting. I'm considering graduate school simply in order to delay having to find a career. I have a lot of interests, but nothing that stands out as something I want to do for the rest of my life or even part of my life. I have huge self-confidence issues, like I said I'm 22 yet I've never been on a date, never even had female friends for the most part. I only have a few really close male friends and I seem to be growing apart from them all the time. One of my friends was recently kicked out of college because of academic probation and my other close friend is about as introverted as I am. I was really quiet in high school and when I got to college I told myself I would break out of my shell and things would be different. I've been telling myself the same thing for the past 3 years of college. On a college campus that is over 2/3 female, there is nothing quite as crushing to the ego and self-confidence as being able to count on one hand the number of times a female has initiated a conversation with me in 3 years. I've read plenty of the PUA material posted around here and other places on the internet, but canned openers and routines are just not congruent with who I am. Call me bitter, but I think it is pretty fucking ridiculous that as an average looking male I have to put forth all the effort to initiate and maintain conversations. I've been on and off all sorts of anti-depressant medications for the past 6 years, none of it really seems to do anything and I've just recently quit taking my latest medication due to its lack of efficacy. I've gone to see a counselor and a psychiatrist, but their advice I could find in any self-help book or the internet and it just seemed like a big waste of money. I'm a bit disillusioned with it all at this point and I'm completely sick of hearing the phrase “just give it some time and things will get better” from friends and family. The most ironic part of all of this is that I'm in the best shape of my life. I've been going to the gym 5 days a week for the past month and a half and I have no plans of stopping anytime soon. I've been riding my bike more often to classes now. I just stopped smoking marijuana after 1 year of smoking it almost nightly. And I haven't had any alcoholic beverages besides the occasional beer in a few months. I've probably rambled on enough by now. I didn't really come here expecting answers, I guess I just feel as if I don't fit in anywhere, I don't have a purpose or passion for life and I feel like I am somehow an old soul. People my age just don't care about anything anymore and I myself am beginning not care as well.