First off i realize i cannot be in a relationship because i have a few issues to deal with. I was hanging out with a girl as friends for nearly 7 months and she wanted me to ask her out, so i finally did but felt sort of obligated. She is nice, we have fun, but i feel her being 20 and me 26 were at different stages of our life. We started having sex recently, and yes i know im older but im completely paranoid/something mentally wrong with me that i feel she will get pregnant and i don't want kids right now. She takes the pill, recently switched to another one, and we have protected sex but im still paranoid she will get pregnant so i realize i cant have a gf at the moment until i get issues with myself straightened out. every scenerio will run into my head, like she switched bc and stopped taking it for 2 days until she switched to the new one, even though i used a condom, i still think she is pregnant like im paranoid and cant stop thinking about it. Next i dont know what to say to her because she really likes me, and i feel like a complete idiot for committing to a relationship and i feel like i will break her heart. we have been only going out for a couple weeks, and i just dont like the feeling at the moment. she is going to hate me and get all emotional and i feel like the biggest dirt bag, because i don't want to hurt her. i dont know what to tell her exactly, but i really feel i have issues with myself i have to work out before getting involved with anyone.