This problem has plagued me since I was 10 and with recent events, is starting to plague me again. Growing up, my parents always told me, when I asked them about death, just dont think about it, don't even mention it. When I got to the age of 10 years old, I really began to think and came to the realization, its gonna happen to even me and my parents. At the time, I usually could think of an answer to make myself feel better, but this one I could not. For months on end, my parents spent time talking to me about it more, then friends of family then religious figures, but still I could never shake the feelings away. I guess this all stemmed from my mom or dad, when they used to get mad at me, they threatened me, "well one day were gonna be gone and there's nothing you can do to bring us back.." In 1994, a uncle close to me died and I was messed up for several months. Everything I could normally do, I couldn't only because it didn't feel right for me to have fun since he was gone and even songs I used to love, reminded me of it. Only now, 11 years later, I am just starting to listen to those songs again. Now with my dad at age 70 and my mom at age 62, I can't help but wonder, in the next 20 years, that may not be here, and time is not getting any slower in passing. I find myself feeling unable to fully go out or even move out because im wasting time and should be spending it with them. I'm scared to death that when it finally does happen, I will have so many regrets and I should try my best to think up things I will need to know down the road now even though it doesnt make sense. I'm also scared of being alone when I get old. My fiancee and I spoke about this at length and so far there is no real answer we could come up with, but she reminded me that I shouldn't neglect my friends or other loved ones now, otherwise I'll really be alone. I figure I'd pose my problem to OT and see what I get...what are y'alls takes on death and it being inevitable.