Ok, me and my cousin haven't never had sex however we have did a few "incest gay" things with each other more than once. Here is what happend all 3 times. First Time: He was up at my house, and we were both playing on seperate computers both in same room. I was playing a computer game and he was watching porn. Well I looked over at him and he was stroking...(i was only 13). I was amazed for 1 by his size and 2 for him just doing it so open and I fount myself staring at him playing with him self. Well I guess he knows I'm staring or what not and says "lets play some pool". I have a pool table in my basement. So we rack the game up and everything and hes like, lets play strip pool though. For every ball other person knocks in the other person takes off clothes. Whoever loses and is naked it other persons slave. Thats the rules we set. I fore-warned him and said that if I won we wouldn't do anything. Ok well we play and everything and he wins, however we are both completely naked, to many balls not enough clothes. So he tells me he wants to give me a handjob. So he starts stroking it for me and I'm going crazy, I'm like shooting everything I have plus more. Well after that, he was all kissing on me. Then he stood up from couch, and was showing me his dick. It was big. Well then he sat down on top of me, not with me inside him or nothing, but he started smacking our cocks together and shooting cum on me. Then we stopped. Second Time: He was up at the house again probablly 2-3 months after first time. We were just watching T.V upstairs and we started playing pool once again. Well this time we didn't play strip pool. We put these road shake-lights on the table that were green or whatever. Well we played with them. If you knock them over you already loose. We both played and never knocked it over, well it was my turn again. I then hit it down...on purpose. I'm not sure why I did it though. Was it because I knew what would happen if i did and i wanted it to happen? Anyways, he made me strip. He again, gave me a handjob. Then he made me put my legs in the air and he took his dick and shot cum on my dick and balls. He asked me if I wanted a bj and like a Dumbass I said no. Well then he had me jack him off. Thrid Time: I was at his house. This was when I was 15 so merely 1-2 years later. We were watching porn on his computer. We both kept ourselves from jacking off. However I wanted to so bad, cause it was good porn. So i took off my pants and started. He turned around and saw me and grabbed ahold of me. He then pulled his out and had me jack him while he was jacking me. We both shot and we were done. That was the 3 times. Now you may be asking, why is he posting this? Well I'm still anxious to do it again and I've been thinking I want us to go further. I want to give him a BJ and maybe even ass fuck. I can't get this out of my head and even when I'm typing this in I'm getting a big boner in my pants. He is 19 I'm 15 He is a little bigger than me in size. I'm not sure if I'm asking for you to give me a certain answer but I'm looking for a solution to my problem.