I could make this rant 5 pages long, but I will try to stick to just one issue. I start every day depressed because I have to go to work. My job isn't really all that bad, but I detest the fact that I have to go. Not sure why... At work I pretty much just fuck around on the web all day. Even though I have plenty to do. Even when I am approaching a deadline, I can't get motivated enough to work on my tasks. Is this lazy? Or is it something else? I also own a business completely unrelated to my job. When I work on this I would consider myself an "over-achiever". I have no problem getting motivated to work on this. Am I looking for advice? Or just a chance to vent...I am not sure. Am I depressed? Or just un-happy with my employment? I don't really know. Every job I have, I eventually get to this point. Am I just having a hard time dealing with "having a job"...or have I just done a poor job selecting employment. I can't think of a single "real job" that I have ever had that I would consider a "dream job". I get jealous when people honestly say "I love my job". My "dream" would be to grow my side business into a full time gig. But what I then got bored with that? Then what would I do? See the problem is, I don't know if I am bummed about my actual job, or the fact that I have to go to work every day. Don't take this the wrong way. I am not generally a lazy person. In fact, when I am doing something I am interested in, I am an incredibly hard worker. Like I said, over-achiever. Maybe I just need to find something I am more interested in? But that is blaming it on the job. What if the real fault is myself?