Please OT, help me decide on this major life decision. I'm tired of my life. I'm so fucking sick of where I am and how things are going and it's really time I made changes. I NEED to move away from my parents house and really find out who I am and gain my independence. I think the major source of my problems is that I never did anything during or after high school. It's like I never came out of my shell. I just continued to live a sheltered existence fighting with my parents and feeling miserable every single day. This is no way to live. I can't even get a girlfriend or get laid as long as i'm here. I've got this shitty attitude that follows me around because ultimately I know have to go back home at the end of the night. There is nothing here for me in this town. Nothing but bad memories of a violent and abusive childhood and failed social life. I have no friends and my only relationship (with my brother) is dwindling. So either by fall this year or next spring I WILL be gone. I have narrowed it down to 2 options: 1. Move to California next spring. This is very tempting because I hear that about the great weather and nice people. I would stay at home and attend paramedic training until December and then I would move there by spring. I did research and I can support myself on a paramedic salary. This option seems great because I would move thousands of miles away from this area and would basically have no choice but to find a way to make it on my own there. I think that doing this would allow me to grow personally and maybe meeting people and making friends would be easier. I have this vision of myself as becoming mentally satisfied and "free" if I moved out there. 2. Go to a state university this fall/next spring Not very tempting. I mean it would be logical so that I can get my bachelors degree but otherwise I don't know how this would go. It just doesn't "seem" like it would help me grow as much as option number one. Either way, after school I would plan on moving to California regardless, so it's like I might as well just go now. Then again I feel like I would be missing out by not trying the college life. Ultimately, I would like to be a firefighter. Getting a bachelors is certainly not a requirement and it is something I can do while I am working for a fire department. This is a big decision for me and I am definitely picking one option and sticking with it. I would love input here since I really don't have anyone else to consult with.