Weve only been together just over a month, but I thought Id finally found a girl who didnt have any real problems, no baggage really. We get along great, seeing each other every weekend or so. Yesterday when she and her friend came over, I could tell somethin was different though. She didnt wanna be touched or anything, and seemed upset. Finally I got the story out of her. She has Stage 4 ovarian cancer. By this stage, youre basically guaranteed not to live. She has 2-5 months to live... In early 05, I lost my step-grandfather. A week later, one of my favorite teachers also passed. 6 months later, it was my grandma's time, I was really close to her. Thats 3 deaths within 6 months. Add that to the fact that, 4 days before my grandma passed away, I found out I had Hepatitis C from a blood transfusion as a baby. The medicine made me very depressed, on top of what was already going on. Over the next couple years, I thought I had finally beaten depression. Now, this. I really dont know what Im gonna do right now. Everything keeps fucking up in my life, and I cant do anything about it. Im really just ranting here. It seems like Ive realized how bad this is before she has. I dont think its really hit her yet, that by the end of the summer, she could very well no longer exist in the world. Shes gonna try chemo, but Ive seen what that does to people, its not fun. If it were me, Id rather live out my last few months having fun, not laying in bed sick all the time. I dont really know what to think right now, I cant imagine how her parents and siblings must feel.