#1 I'm fat. 265lbs @ 6 feet. I have a gym membership card, but I never go there because I'm too depressed. #2 I guess I'm an alcoholic. I drink every day. Beer and booze. Just to feel a little better. #3 I go to a school I hate just because it is my only chance to get better education. They specialized on computer science and maths... I suck at both. #4 Thanks to my credit card I'm in like $2000 debt. And since I go to school I can't pay them back. I'm scared to tell my parents. Every month I hope there is enough money on my bank account to pay the interests. I have to "steal" money from my parents to get through. #5 I haven't seen 90% of my friends for half a year. I don't want them to see me like that. (fat and worthless) So I avoid contact. Which resulted in them telling me to gtfo. #6 Since I gained 100lbs in 6 months, I have stretch marks ALL over my body. Arms, legs, stomach, butt, waist... and I know they will be there forever. So why work out if I still look ugly. #7 I'm STILL in love with a girl. Fell in love 4 years ago, she had several boyfriends since. Always depressed me to see her with another guy. Haven't seen her for 6 months, like most of my friends but I still think about her. I often cry myself to sleep, I have horrible nightmares all the time. I feel so fucking miserable... is there a way out of all this bullshit?