I made a thread in here a couple of months ago about my mom being in the hospital. She was diagnosed with a rare disease last year- scleroderma. It is basically worse than cancer as doctors have no idea what causes it and how to cure it. It can be veru agressive and attack your organs causing them to fail. Back in March, my mom was rushed to the hospital because she couldn't breath, ended up having pheumonia, septis (blood poisoning), and a heart attack. She made it through it all, had triple bypass and went back home after two weeks. Since them, she's been in and out of the hospital due to stomach problems, having a stent inserted in her artery to prevent a stoke, etc. I have talked to one of her doctors and he said that the scleroderma has only attacked her stomach and not her vital organs. Anyways, last week, we went to go see her doctor for a follow up and I told him about everything that has been going on. She ended up going straight to the hospital after the appointment because she had trouble breathing and she was so weak that she couldn't get up at all. We rushed her into the ER. I found out that she had another heart attack. Basically her cardiologist did an angiogram on her and found that one of her valves in her heart are not closing so blood is leaking back, making her heart work harder than it's supposed to. The doctors cannot do surgery on her now because she is extremely weak from throwing up everyday because of her stomach. Anyways things seemed to have been getting better because last Tuesday she got transferred out of ICU and into a normal hospital room. However, the nurse found that my moms oxygen level was very low even with the oxygen mask on. On Thursday, she was seen by a lung doctor to see what is the deal with her oxygen being so low. They gave her a little bit of water to drink (she hasn't been able to eat or drink anything while in teh hospital due to her stomach) and I guess she aspitrated the fluid into her lungs. She couldn't breath so the doctor rushed her back up into the ICU and put her on a ventilator. They found out that she has phneumonia again because of the fluid in her lungs. They doctors say that it is a bad prognosis and are going to wait 4 days to see how she responds to the antibiotics. They say that her body is starting to shut down. She is on life support now. I've been to the hospital everyday except for today because last time I went I had a panic attack. I'm on anxiety medication. Everyone tells me to be strong, but I cannot. Just standing there watching my mom so lifeless and not being able to help her kills me inside. I just don't know how much more I can handle... The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that she is a fighter.