I began working for this company three years ago. First year I was a volunteer than the past two I have been officially hired as an employee. Upon starting this job, everything was great... even though I was a bit overwhelmed at times. My co-workers seemed very nice until I noticed them bashing one another behind their backs. I started to wonder, even become paranoid.. if they were doing the same to me. So I tried to be perfect with my job (I was so friendly they nicknamed me "smiley") which didn't work out too well because it was putting too much additional pressure on myself that soon lead to anxiety attacks. Once I got to the office, I would stumble over my own words..my mind would go blank. This was/is soo frustrating for me since I do well at all my other jobs-- I'm completely normal. Why is this happening here? I had lunch with one of my co-workers to which she justified everyone back-stabbing each other. Although she claims that my boss is happy with me, she agrees one of the co-workers looks at me out of the corner of her eye up and down in a rude way. Now I am more self-concious than ever!!! This co-worker came up to me today crying that since she got married (inter-racial marriage) that all the others are ganging up against her, pilling more work upon her and totally disrespecting her. She claims that our management has literally banned her husband from our office because company policy states that married couples cannot speak or visit during work hours. This man served as a volunteer to our company...he would do anything for anyone. Now this woman is concerned about her job and is terrified to go to work everyday but she must due to overwhelming debt. I felt so bad I gave her $100. because she has done so much for me, she is really a great friend. I don't know what to do now. Everyone at my office seems to be a backstabber. I don't know who to trust or if I should even stay. Sorry about the long post.