I'll try to keep this brief, I've fallen for a girl who is leaving (has left but i'll see her once more in 4 weeks) overseas for approx. 9 months to a year. She had planned this before we met. I've never been this attached to anyone, and the feeling is mutual. She has never had a relationship. Her friend who has known and lived with her since she was 8 often mentions how strange it is to see her like this because she never likes anyone and supports that it's real. She has used the L word with me (first time for her). The last person I was remotely into at this level took me a year to get over. We've agreed we don't want to kill this and think it'll last (we have decided to do the long distance thing), but in the end a year is a long scary time. Here's the irrational-in-love-idea I have: Defer my second semester of Uni and go up to London half way through this year and live with her there and travel around Europe for the remaining 6 months. It's a big call, is it stupid? She said she'd love for that and that she'd wait till I arrived before she did any of her exploring around Europe and just work in London for the first half. I've got money and time to do it I guess. The problem I sort of see in all of this is that it's my first year of Uni. I spent last year hating work and everything that was going on in my life. The prospect of Uni doesn't thrill me at all either but it will kill some time. I think maybe having a break that long from job/education might throw me off a bit in terms of direction and just turn me into one of those people who just settles with a shitty job and lives to support the next day and that's it. On the other hand, I can genuinely say this is the first time I've felt happy. I've been really tired and bored with life since I was ~13 and have just wanted to die. Not in the whiney cut-myself kind of way, but nothing has really seemed worthwhile to stick around for. So I figure I should jump at the possibility of some happiness and not think about the rest. If anyone could support one way or the other I'd be interested to hear.