A little background story, me and my ex broke up around 4 months ago. We dated for a 2 years and lived together for 1. She broke up with me because I basically took her for granted. I wasn't the best boyfriend and I had a bad case of thinking the grass was greener on the other side. I treated her like shit and would occasionally lie to her and this caused her to lose a lot of trust in me. Eventually she dumped me because she felt I wasn't in to it anymore and she was sick of not trusting me. I was crushed, and quickly realized what I had and how amazing it was and foolish I was. I didn't realize it, but this girl was the one. Perfect, loyal, trustworthy, never made me feel insecure or worried about what she was doing, and all in all the perfect girl for me. I attempted to get her back and trying to see her, but she wouldnt have it. For a good 3 months we barely talked, maybe a text her and there but that was it. Now lately, she has been texting me. Last night she wanted to come over, so I figured what the hell (even thoough I knew it would unbox all the feelings I have been bottling up). Now I havent seen her in almost 3 months, and when she finally comes over, of course I fall in love with her again all over. I asked her why she came, and if she wants to talk about maybe giving us another shot, but she said she cant trust me yet, so doesnt know if she could jump back into things. I respond by asking why she would come over then if she didnt think things could work out, and justified it by saying "she is human and misses me." I told her another I want another shot, but she said she cant just blindly trust me. I asked her what I could possibly do, but she said if it was meant to be I would know. She wanted to kiss me, but I told her I couldnt because I wanted to date and if she wasnt interested I couldnt kiss her. She kept asking if she could, but eventually I said I had to go, and walked her to her car. We hugged for a bit, then she left. Now I am racking my brain about this. I feel like I rupped the sutures out of my breaking heart, and I am back at square one. I guess I need some advice. I really want this girl back, but I know I shouldnt even consider it unless she flat out tells me she wants me back.. right? But then again I was the one who fucked up.. but I feel like anything I try to show her I can change is in vain.. Advice?