When I thought my life was getting better it seems too just fall a part all over again.... I am so freaking depressed right now. My roomate is moving out, but thats not what is bothering me. He says he is going to move out in May, but says he is not going to pay for Mays rent, due to him leaving. Thats the first problem, money... I don't have enough money to pay for his half let alone trying to put food on the table. It was his turn to buy groceries, and he bought none, so I basically have been starving these past few days due to him being a asswhole because he thinks it is more important to pay for his g/f's daughters cloths and her food then contribute to his obligations around the house, when the kid is not even his. I haven't ate much since Sunday. My mom and dad are trying to help me out, but there financial stability is some where between the lines of, "well what should we not pay this month"? Since this upcoming stress, I have done nothing but turn to the bottle. I have never drank so much in my life, and I am gradually becoming a more in depth alcoholic. I am trying to hide this from my friends, because I don't want them to start drinking again because of me. I have no money, the job I have is great, but pays pennies. My boyfriend is stress because he knows I am falling into alcohol because of these problems, and he has no money either. We basically live paycheck to paycheck, and our relationship is some what suffering because he thinks he is not supporting me well enough. I am so depressed, it I am scared about doing something rash when it comes to me drinking. I puked blood for the first time a few days ago, and I have realized I need help. I have money issues, I am becoming a worse alcoholic, and too top it all off, I have never felt this depressed before. Am I just over reacting? Or am I haviing a nervous break down?