I dont know where to start, but i assume my current situation. Im 23 years old and live home with my family while im still finishing up my Ba degree in college. I never ever seem to fit in with the normal routine everyone would follow about going to school and just working some part time job to make some extra money. I was the one who was always never satisfied with what i had or what I made. I kept in school and finished my associates really quick in 2 years, and then i transferred for my Ba. While my buddies and such were just going to school mainly and just working pt jobs to make some money, I was always after something more. I wanted everything I liked and always needed a large bank account to calm my worries. I sit here now after owning a successful business that I thought would make myself happy. I make more money than my friends who work full time in one day then they do in one week. I got to the point where I could get what i want, have nice cars, can buy nice things and I realized im dont feel normal. While it is great to have money, the chase after the money ruined everything The girl I loved cheated on me because I think I didnt show her enough attention. My bonds with my family became weak and I actually became more stressed and depressed. I thought things would be great, now im at the point where I just want to get rid of it all and be down with the low maintenance lifestyle. I just feel like im working but never have time to have fun cause im always working 6-7 days a weeks. I have money but nothing really I want to buy anymore, I just dont want it. I feeel like doing nothing anymore my drive is gone im a total mess. I dont know where to start or where to end, and i guess worst of all the girl i loved so much but didnt realize it until she was gone, is gone. Im just so depressed lately and I never thought I would be this way. Im at the point where I want to feel like a normal college kid, but also feel like i passed that stage and im 23 already and should not feel that way and do the things college kids would do. Im have mixed emotions each day and go up and down. Im guess this is all confusing, but im trying to straighten out my life.