why the hell do i have next to zero emotions except for the occasional depression? i feel nothing for family, girls, or any friends. i now see them all as just dumb people that bother me and i want nothing to do with anyone. hanging out with friends, all we do is drive around and waste gas and money, i honestly don't ever have fun. just a stupid waste of time. i don't seem to give a shit about anything anymore, not even getting busted by the cops and then bitched out by my parents. I'm a very realist person and thing positive people are fucking retarded and should be slapped straight. I see no point in trying to look at things positively, doesn't make me feel better or happy. i was only happy when i was a child but i grew up and happiness doesn't seem to exist anymore. if you can tell what kind of person i am just from that dumb shit i just wrote, please tell me what the hell is wrong with me.....is this just a phase??