Girl and I have been dating 1 year 3-4 months or so now. I was an idiot a few months ago and pushed her away to the point that we needed to take a break. I just just retarded, and numb, and oblivious to what I was actually doing. So we decided to take a break and I finally realized how retarded I had been and made a complete 360 degree turn around. I changed everything she had ever said I was doing wrong and all the things I had done that had hurt us. Anyways, during the break, its still kinda been like we've somewhat been dating. She still stays over here a couple nights a week, occasional sex, still kiss etc. etc. Anyways, somehow this weekend she's got it in her head that she still loves me and doesn't want to close the door on us forever, but feels right now we work better as best friends. She's even told me that I'm the closest person in the world to her. I've talked to a few of her friends and they all tell me that they all think she still loves me, and that she doesn't even check out guys or w/e when they go out... but I'm so scared of losing her forever... The past 3 days I've had anxiety attacks like no other to the point where I've barely been able to eat at all. I finally had to goto the health center and get a prescription for anxiety to calm me down. OT, I don't know what to do. We are each others first loves and we're both about 3/4 of the way the college and have even discussed wanting to get married and such. I just... I can't lose her, this isn't some relationship that you'll find another fish in the sea or whatever... this girl is perfect for me. I don't know what to do to show her that we're meant to be together and not just "best friends." This is absolutely killing me.