Hello, I do not post much but I read on here sometimes. Anyway I am pretty unhappy right now and just not doing good overall. My head is really messed up and it hurts. Later when I am free I will make a real post with all the information and maybe someone who has a lot of knowledge can lead me in the right direction. Here is a copy of an email from earlier today. "You had the opportunity to see me again in just a few weeks and continue everything we have been building on for the past 4 years but instead you want to hook up with some guy for a few weeks over everything we have. That really hurts me. Things can never be the same between us, that is the ultimate low blow, you have no idea. Every time I think about you I get upset. You are fully aware of what you are willing to loose and that bothers me even more. How could you choose a hook up for a few weeks over seeing me and keeping a one of a kind relationship? Now in the future when we talk or see each other which wont be anytime soon, we cant just be together when we see each other and all that. I don't get why you are throwing out 4 years to have a hookup for a few weeks. Seriously, because of what you are doing we can never be boyfriend and girlfriend again. The last night of our trip we were taking kissing pictures and when I look at them it was so recent and I was so completely happy. You were like my dream girl; I loved every single inch of you!! It was amazing and could not of been any better. Now I can't even look at any pictures of you because it just hurts a great deal to go from having everything to having nothing so quickly and randomly. I gave you that nice necklace to show how much I appreciated you and how grateful I was and loved you. How can we take kissing pictures 2 weeks ago and now your kissing some other guy? I am so crushed _(name)_, we just had an amazing time together, I took you skiing in the rocky mountains, we went out for nice dinners, went in the hot tub, sledding, spent new years together, and I held you in my arms every night for a week straight. It was so good you made me the happiest guy ever, I couldn't imagine being with anyone else. This is truly unbelievable, I respect your decision however, you lost my heart and trust in you. I am done." Yes I know I sound like a pussy but give me a break 4 years!!