I will share a crazy story that I don't know what to think about it. Pretty much here goes: The other day I was bored and just hanging out after work at night and I watched Matilda since it was on with my little bro and mom. After Matilda ended a church sermon came on and I thought it was kinda cool, so I went up into my room to watch it. After it finished up I felt like reading a book and for some reason I remember I had seen A Purpose Driven Life collecting dust in my brothers room so I went and got it and started reading it. Well I had read it previously so I wasn't expecting anything to come of it but I have just been feeling so down as of late as I don't have very many friends right now due to staying at home for college unlike everyone else I know and not having gf and such. I also felt like I had no purpose. Anyways after reading to chapter 3 and just thinking it over something weird happened. I sat there and was holding the book over my face and just playing with the idea that God created us in his love and praying to god that he one day gave me a purpose. Then all of the sudden I feel really really weird. My hands lower from my chest and close the book and then I can't move. I begin to freak out a little bit and I start breathing a little quicker because I am freaked out. I am laying on a futon in my room with piano music playing in the back and I can't move. My eyes close and my face goes numb and I can still feel the fan in my room and hear the music but I am just in this creepy numb state. Well all of the sudden I start understanding someone. I didn't hear noise at all except Itunes playing my piano cd and then I begin to hear some type of communication. It wasn't talking but it seemed to be something on the level of my thoughts but it wasn't from my head as it didn't sound like my thoughts in my head. (aka I wasn't thinking them). Anyways it says hello and tells me that it could not talk to me until now as I had not chosen god as my purpose and instead had been following my own purpose. It told me that my purpose would be very soon revealed and it would greatly serve him. I asked him who it was because honestly I felt terrified talking to this unknown voice in my head. It told me it was God. With a few seconds of silence I asked it through thoughts if I could see what it looked like. (if it was god talking to you, who wouldn't?" At this point it tells me to open my eyes and I will see it. All excited I open my eyes and there is nothing to be seen but my room. I ask it inside my head where it is and it tells me: "I am your room, I am the walls, I am the grass outside, the trees. I am the rain, the skies and the entire universe. I am you and everyone else. I am God and I created you through love. At this point crazy salsa music comes on and its really loud so I now get up and I turn all the music off by turning my speakers off. I go and lay back down, not yet discussing with God. I began to breathe weird again and again my whole body goes numb and I can feel my heart pounding. Then I feel separated from my body and I can feel that my soul and body are two separate things. I began speaking to God again and I ask him silly questions about my life and he gives me small unimportant things about the future. I then ask him about my mother who suffered from brain cancer four years ago and who we worried may have cancer again because live cells around the brain tumor came up on her MRI. I asked him and he told me that my mother was healed and that I was to go tell her the news. The growth inside her head was healthy cells and she should be getting her full walking ability back. I then ask God when I should tell my mother this and he tells me I will be going now. All of the sudden in autopilot I go downstairs and talk to my mom sitting on the coach. I tell her everything and she becomes greatly excited and tells me she has had two similar experiences before. I then go to bed. A week later I haven't heard word from God and I am wondering if I am crazy? My mom went in for her MRI and the growth around her tumor is not Cancerous and it looks like healthy cells. All in all I don't know whats going on. What do I believe from all this? I still feel without purpose! Anyone have anything similar or anything?