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Month ago was 6'4" 283, currently 266. Try to keep this as quick and short as I can, which is unpossible for me
Backstory if you care: Been trying to get my shit together as I've let my eating issues get the best of me for months, gained half the weight back I lost over the last 6-12 months. I'm so used to losing weight so fast and even after losing nearly 10 pounds in 48 hours of water weight, losing almost a pound every day. When I lost 150 pounds 3 years ago (in 7 months

), even as I got smaller I'd still lose 3-5 pounds a week. My absolute bottom was 215 after a multi day fast on keto, with only walking 7.5 miles every night. Everyone was telling me I was too skinny, which makes me lol at all the traditional height/weight charts. The highest any of them say anyone who's 6'4" should weigh is 203

Been averaging ~250 the last year or two, got down to 235 last year and for the first time built some arm muscles. Nothing great for sure, but some decent shape to delts and biceps. Did all that with 30lb dumbbells and doing pushups.
Now: Trying to get my shit together for a vacation in less then 2 weeks, and then going out on the party boat 3 weeks after that, and by FAR most importantly trying to get in the long term habit of going to the gym, better diet and lifting. So at first I lost 11 pounds of water weight in 48 hours from 283>272. I've almost exclusively been doing lifting. Little cardio in the beginning, sometimes I start or end lifting with a little cardio. Gym is closed Fri/Sat night, so I try to go out and walk a few miles at least one of those nights. I've been stuck at like 266 for like 3 weeks. I'm struggling not seeing the scale drop at all. I keep trying to tell myself its because I'm losing fat and adding muscle, but its been so different and challenging wanting to get in shape and look better, and feeling like I've made no progress and am still a fat fuck. I know my arms are getting bigger though. Just trying to keep pressing on.
I'll split more into another post to try not to have a wall of text....