I'm very shy, i'm angry, I'm paranoid, i'm fucking miserably unhappy, i'm horny all the time. Sexually, I've never felt a woman touch me nor have i've ever touched a woman. I probably never will. I have nobody to turn to in my life anymore. My older brother has become cold to me. I've only had one time in my life where I had friends I actually liked, but they all abandoned me. I'm lonely, i'm emotionally unstable, people know i'm fucked up and they treat me like i'm very fragile. I would rather have zero guidance than the limp-dick, spineless guidance I got from my parents. My father is a fucking coward. No backbone whatsoever when dealing with people. Sad, shrewd, bipolar little man. That is all I had to look up to in my childhood years. No fucking wonder I'm the same way. It is impossible to have a mature conversation with the guy. This is the hand i've been dealt in life. There is no way out of it. I absolutely HATE my entire family and have hated them for as long as I can remember. I want to move out but it wont happen because I need a place to stay while I work/school. I want to get laid. I want sex. I'm a sexually frustrated mess. Girls are supposedly big whores nowadays but even I can't manage to get anything. I don't even try, I have to much anxiety. I would never bring a girl back to my shitty house to meet my, fuck I hate them, family. I'm fucking losing my mind I'm fucking losing my mind I'm fucking losing my mind It's such a shame that a person has to live this kind of life. Life is a beautiful thing. I worry that I will never experience it. Down in a fuckin hole, no soul. Drugs don't even help me anymore. They just amplify the void in my life and I can't even escape from reality to get away from it all. I hate people. I hate how your all brainwashed with you IPOD, MYSPACE LOLOLOLOL, MTV THE REAL LIFE (it isn't fucking real), THE HILLS, PUSSY SHIT MUSIC. Very few Americans care about the less fortunate. More for yourself, less for everyone else. Something in this country is terribly fucked. Americans are an evil soulless breed. I have so many problems with myself. I see so many problems in the world as well. Maybe they are all in my head, but I definitely see them. Nobody else seems to notice, nobody seems to care. It's all about where the pussy is gonna be at tonight, right? As for women, 99% fuck around with guys that they shouldn't. Women are fucked in the head worse than me, except they don't realize it. So what the fuck in the world is stopping me from just grabbing a dumb bitch with bit tits, being a fuckin prick to her, and she'll sit on my dick for it? It doesn't make any fucking sense!!! Why the fuck do these dumb fuck whores have the same rights as me? The only reason I say I have problems is because I've been told so many fucking times that I have problems. Especially by my parents, especially by the shit stain on the world's underwear, also known as my father. But who knows, maybe it's just everyone else who has the problem. I was always under the impression that you find someone of the opposite sex and you two develop a relationship with each other. In other threads, people are saying that you shouldn't be in a relationship while in high school. They are saying that high school/college should be a time put away for sex. Since when did people just start fucking each other. WHERE THE FUCK IS THE HEART IN THAT I hate EVERYBODY. Before you unqualified psychologists start telling me that I NEED to see a therapist, please take into consideration that a big chunk of my anger comes from the frustration of seeing that things are so fucked in America, and yet half the people are too stupid to notice, and the other half just turn their heads.