First off let me give you a little backstory of what's going on. I got put on probation for a DUI about 6 months ago. While on probation I did something really stupid and failed a drug test for coke. I did only one line (no one seems to believe me), I really don't even like the shit. I can't even really believe I did it myself.. I was very depressed at the time and really just did not care about myself. I had never felt that way in my life just so down. I had just broke up with my girl and was like fuck it. And I know that is no excuse for what I did, I realize it was my own fault I did it and have to live with the consequences. Anyways they tried to revoke my probation. I went to my hearing and suprisingly the judge went easy on me. He sentenced me to 2 days in jail and is making me attend an intensive outpatient rehab program. He thinks I'm a coke addict and I can't really blame him... My revocation hearing was probably one of the most stressful times of my life, everyone else in the courtroom besides me got their probation revoked. A couple days after I got out of court my dad was taken to the emergency room and was put in ICU for 5 days he has the west nile virus. He almost died due to brain swelling. But he is recovered now. The following weekend, I served my 2 days in jail and that was stressful enough. Fast forward a week later and my debit card got stolen and someone used 500 dollars out of my account.. All of this just stresses me out I don't like the drama I like to stay low key. As you can see I feel very OVERWHELMED. Now on to the point, I took out a loan for 3 grand to pay my lawyer and other court fines/fees. I found out the rehab is going to cost me anywhere between 3 to 4 thousand. And the counselor seems to think I'm a coke head. So, basically I'm around 7,000.00 in debt because of doing one line of coke. I've just been so stressed out worrying about how I'm going to afford all of this really. I don't think I'm depressed just extremely stressed out and worried about all of this. I just feel like I'm in a rut and cannot get out. Financially mostly. I don't think I can pay for all this. I am also extremely disappointed in myself. I don't know what advice I'm really looking for here just wanted to vent really. And I'm sorry if the story is hard to follow, i was just typing.