I'm really scared about my life. I'm starting school in January. I applied for a college away from home but didn't get in so now i'm going locally. I don't mind that but I feel like its just more time without women. Everyone tells me to meet chicks online (i have no idea where or how to do that) but even that scares me. I've started drinking alot and doing drugs on occasion to escape my depression. I've been to doctors but every anti depressant makes me sick. I'm just unhappy. I think i'm making a positive step by going to college but at the same time I really want a girlfriend and for some reason can not get one. I've had girlfriends before but nothing really went anywhere. Everyone tells me i'm good looking and older chicks are always hitting on me but girls my own age just dont seem to be interested. People that know me well love me but everyone says I have trouble expressing my true personality to people I just met. Between not having a girlfriend and being so scared that i'm going to fail at school life has been horrible. I don't know what i'm looking for here I'm just not sure what to do.