last night was a perfect example of a dream that ive have over and over lately. im talking with my wife (i say wife, because in the dream it implies that were not divorced yet) trying to reason with her why we should try to work on our marriage instead of just dropping it into the shitter. the dreams are nothing but a replay of what actually happened, and just like reality, nothing positive came from my loyalty to her. each dream is quite uncomfortable, and im basically reliving the impending doom. the dream frequency has been really bad in the past week, probably because ive not had time to spend with any of my friends. getting together with or visiting my friends has really gone the distance of keeping my thoughts clear of my ex, but the past week i was packing to move and didnt have time to get out any. i moved over the weekend, but i still have a few more days of collecting the misc stuff that didnt fit into boxes and cleaning out my 2 garages, so its going to be many more days until all this is done. on top of all this, the apartment that i just moved out of (and previously shared with my exwife) is so much better than the place im in now. the walls are thin, and the A/C doesnt cool worth a shit since there giant floor-to-cleiling windows (i need curtains in a bad way). i *want* to regret moving out now, but i guess that this is all for the best... new beginnings and all. last night was my 2nd night in the apt, but the first night i slept in the bedroom. it took for ever for it to cool down to 80 degrees (still not where i like it), and the room is lit too brightly from lights somewhere outside. yep... curtains. anyway, i barely slept a wink last night... and when i did, see paragraph 1. ive dated some here and there, and ive talked to lots of new women on the phone lately. even with as delightful as it is to be talking to new females, i see that my previous heartbreak is still affecting me quite a bit. i have gotten to the point tho, where i can make it thru a complete conversation without letting any topic touch on my marriage or my ex, so thats a good thing i guess. im slated to go out with one girl as soon as i can make time, but with moving still in progress, i dont see it as soon as i would prefer. sometimes if i take a shot before bed, i tend to sleep without dreaming much (or at least i dont remember them, i read someone that you dont get all the way down into REM sleep?). ive not had any alcohol in days, and yes, i prefer not to drink alone. but going back to a shot before bed is looking pretty good right now. on a positive side, ive not had any contact with my ex, and the opposite of the last time i posted, ive not had any urge to try to make contact. anyway, i just needed to get that off my chest. cliffs: the dreams suck.