Is it the thrill of the chase, of the encounter, of my heart pumping that I crave? The risks I take are more of vices than death defying activities, but they are still pretty borderline. I'm deployed overseas right now, a gunner risking my life everyday on the most dangerous streets in Iraq. Back home I work as a Correctional Officer in a prison where the inmates aren't confined to their rooms. I like to drive my Jeep like a bat out of hell and take it stump jumping until I get it stuck. I smoke cigarettes, drink most days back home and occasionally smoke Marijuana. I've lost hundreds of dollars in a matter of minutes playing blackjack and poker online and at casinos. I want to know what this all means and why everything I do involves risk. I would like to cut down on the vices and be a little better to myself. Anyone out there taking risks like me?