STD talk... So I got the g/f worked up thinking she is going to go down on me this weekend. Problem is, I been reading up on shit, mainly STD and Genital Herpes and I'm totally freaked out. I want the best for both of us and, I don't want to do or have her do something she'd regret. She is clean; gets checked up every month or so. I'm sure she is fine. Me on the other hand haven't gotten a checkup for a while (hell I can't even remember when I last did). But then again, I haven't been with anyone besides her and we haven't 'done it'. I dunno what to do. Last few days it's almost like I just lead her onto thinking about what we're gonna do so it's gonna be a bummer to disappoint her. Just that I woke up this morning and I thought it over and over and the whole thought of STD and herpes and shit, scared the crap outta me. Relationship talk... We live once; I don't want to make any mistakes. We're just casually dating and I don't really see much of a future for us. She on the other hand has very strong feelings for me. Her birthday is coming up on Jan 20th and I feel like shortly after that I will consider just calling it quits. Too many (internal) conflicts between us: - age (I'm 25 she's 19), - religion (I'm Hindu, she's Christian) - culture/family values (from what I have seen/experienced in the last few months, we are totally different in so many ways) - Her family accepts me, but I'm pretty sure my family isn't of her. She can be the greatest person in the world but life just would be very difficult because of the culture clash. - He (step) mom still creeps me out and I just feel a bad/negative vibe around her Some of these things may seem kinda petty but I dunno, I've had too many weird/confusing thoughts floating in my head lately and I don't think this relationship is working out to me (but she thinks everything is fine). I love her as a friend; nothing more nothing less. And I want to remain so even after we break up. I'm also very scared to break her heart cuz she has had some very troubleing previous relationships. I'm just not ready for her. What should I do?