I feel like this post might belong in the vaginarium but the female mods there are pretty insensitive to this issue and would just lock the thread so, I'm posting here. I'm generally pretty shy, especially about this issue so I've been reluctant to make a post about it but I feel like I'm at rock bottom here, so theres not much to lose. Long story short, I've always been insecure about certain things. A lot of people are. I was pretty overweight in my highschool years, but a few years later now and I've lost 50 pounds and I no longer have a physical insecurity about my weight. One thing that I haven't been able to overcome, and dont think I ever will, is insecurity about my package. I guess I'm a little below average, but this is something that bothers me beyond anyones imagination and its on my mind 24/7. Like literally every minute of every day. I feel like I could break down into tears at any moment of the day over it. I feel like I can't live and enjoy life as I should because of this, and I need to do something about it. (I had the same issue about my weight, so I lost the weight. I cant exactly go out and grow a bigger penis, so I feel hopeless.) My dating life is certainly affected by it. I was a virgin until I was 20 simply because I am so insecure about it that I never made the initiative to have sex. The two girls I've had sex with didn't laugh in my face or get out of the bed and go home the second she saw it as I had presumed, but I had also at somepoint in my relationship with them confronted them about my insecurity so anything they've ever said to me, I don't believe, simply because I feel like they just wouldnt want to hurt my feelings. Every time theres a reference to penis size, like a joke in a movie or TV show, it just takes me down another notch. You ever sneak in somewhere youre not supposed to be, or sit in front row seats to an event when you paid for nosebleeds? This is how I feel about life, and around females. I cannot get over the feeling that I am not good enough. I don't even bother conversing with females because its like, well even if I ended up dating this girl or brought her home to have sex, shed probably leave me after that anyways so whats the point? Hearing girls talk about loving big dicks and making fun of small ones and saying how much size matters, its like how am i NOT supposed to feel completely useless and not good enough if i'm not hung? I feel as though I will never have a wife and kids, because no woman would ever want to be with me since I dont have a good sized package. Or even if she did stay with me, shed just secretley cheat on me to get satisfied. I think about this so much that it makes me depressed. Emotionally, I have too much heart. I give myself away easily and would do anything to please someone/make someone happy that I care about. And since I dont feel that I can do that sexually, it bothers me that much more. Ive had a few short relationships, and every time things end, for ANY reason, I dont believe that reason and presume its because she wants a bigger dick. I feel like its almost a fixation. I feel like I'm not even doing anything for the female I'm fucking, and I can't even have an orgasm because I'm so fixated on that. The thought of someone I've slept with having sex with a bigger guy infuriates me, because its like why would she possibly want to have sex with me after that? Obviously shes going to enjoy someone bigger THAT much more.. I dont know what to do here. Maybe I need to be on some kind of medication to control my thoughts? I just feel like theres no way I will ever overcome this, and never enjoy life. I dont know, any input is appreciated. Thanks.