Hey everybody . I'll try to give you guys a quick recap of my whole life. My Mom and Dad were never married, and barely a couple. However, me, 21, and my brother, 23, were born. I think the most we ever saw my Dad was maybe 9 or 10 times when we went to his house to go hunting or to just spend the week with him. Up until about 4 years ago, he was raising 3 other boys with his wife. My brother and me went to see him for the first time in over 6 years about 4 months ago. We simply ate lunch with him, talked for a little while, and that was it. Not much contact since. I've always felt I have more in common with my dad than my mom. I've always really looked up to him and his accomplishments, especially his Ph.D. I am in my third year of college, majoring in English Education, and he is the superintendent of a school district. I'm sure it's obvious how I would look up to him. I don't know really. I know I'll be fine with or without him. Sure I have my anger and bitterness, but I could put it all aside. Should there be any reason to think that he would want to know me now, when he hasn't wanted to my whole life? I don't even know what having a Dad is like, so I don't know if it's worth it. This stuff never really bothers me until I go to church and hear about all the family values stuff or watch a movie that has a poignant father-son scene.