I don't know what it is. I don't have friends anymore. Parties just aren't fun anymore. I spend a lot of time alone and it is killing me. Sometimes I consider moving back in with my parents just for the sake of company that I can tolerate. Lately I just feel like offing myself. I can barely muster up energy to do things anymore like go to the gym. I don't think I'll get the answers I'm looking for here, but it's kind of nice to let it out.