Another weird post from yours truly I went out with Emily, my lover, last night... she has been talking about not knowing how to pick up a person of the same sex for a while. Wellll lo and behold she made out with the most attractive girl at this club we went to. I almost died. In contrast, earlier in the night, I had gotten on line for what turned out to be a jazz show solely because of the pretty girl in front of me. Once I was on line I realized she was actually extremely beautiful, not pretty. I couldn't get myself to look at her face more than X seconds in a row or even speak right. Even after she joined the conversation it was very hard to get words out of my mouth. Bright headlights. In my current mental state, I would have acted the same way around Emily if I had run into her! I can't believe how out of practice I am. Going out again tonight, doing more approaches, building resistance back up. That's where I'm at right now.