Little background: SO and I had a rough start when we first got together. She wasn't 100% faithful to me, but didn't fuck anyone else. I found out by snooping. We talked about it, took some time to figure out what we wanted, then decided to move past it and rebuild our trust. We started seeing a counselor and things got better. To my knowledge, she has been faithful to me ever since. We've been having a rough time recently and so I start to get worried that she's going to be bad again. I don't think she would, but I decide it's easy to just check and make sure. Of course she caught me. She's upset and I feel like a douche. Thankfully we have an appointment with our counselor today at 4. I know how important trust is in a relationship. I guess I just have a hard time seeing snooping as a violation of trust. As far as I'm concerned she can look through my shit. I don't care. My ex and I had full access to each other's lives. So it's hard for me to comprehend why she would keep me from something if there is nothing to hide. Obviously I should just respect her views and trust her, and usually I do, but when things get rocky between us, I revert to my insecure self. Thoughts?