But I just got back from going out with another girl and just got off the phone with a 3rd girl I'm planning on taking out. My GF and I have been together for a year, she seems head over heels about me and I love her and always have alot of fun with her, it's like we're best friends. But I can't stop thinking about other girls, mainly just having sex with other girls.. See, I'm a late bloomer, I'm an attractive guy now but when I was in middle and high school I was a little on the shy and dorky side plus chubby. Now I'm skinny/slightly built and with age, I've become alot better looking. And thanks to my girlfriends support, I now have alot of confidence/ self esteem when it comes to social things. I'll talk to any girl, ask her out, joke with her, it doesn't matter if she's a model, I don't care and don't feel intimidated. I never really dated much before my current GF, I had a GF here and there but never anything even remotely close to serious. Now I get alot of attention from very attractive girls and I feel like, since me and my GF talk about marriage and plan to move in together in less than a year, that I'm really missing out on all the fun and learning of just going through relationships one right after the other like alot of people do. My Gf had that, she's calmed down now and ready to settle down. I've never had that chance and I feel almost cheated. I just wish I could pause my GF for 2 months so I could date and have sex with as many girls as I could then stop that, hit play and take back up right where we left off and be faithful from then on. Before it's suggested, I know she'd never go for taking a break, so that's not an option. I'm seriously considering seeing these other girls on the side until I'm satisfied then I swear I'll be ready to be faithful. It's just, I lost my virginity to my GF and want to try out other girls. I know it sounds childish but it's how I feel. Damn, I'm writing a book.. Anyways, me and the girl tonight didn't do anything but since my GF is working tomorrow, I plan on hanging out with the same girl again tomorrow and hopefully making a move. As of now I don't feel bad but maybe after the deed is done, I will. Please don't bash me, I know I sound like an asshole but I'm just being honest.