So my story kinda starts with me sorta dropping out of college. I went to a shitty community college for almost 2 years and sometime during the end I was so fucking depressed I stopped going at all, ultimately fucking up all of my grades and wasting money on about 2 terms. After attempting to get my shit together (therapy, meds, etc) I attempted to go back to finish and just did the same thing. I never went to class because I hated school and slept half the day anyway. So here I am, 21, working a part time job, living with my parents, and will soon be paying back student loans for a degree that I don't even have. I've never been a very outgoing person, have never been in love, and I stopped enjoying drinking when I was about 19. I live in a shitty ass small town where there is absolutely nothing to do and I barely have a hand full of friends I hang out with on a daily basis. I'm considering getting off my lazy ass one of these days and going out to find a full time job to help pay the bills for awhile. But, what the fuck else am I supposed to do? Like I said, I don't enjoy drinking. Not the taste, nor the being drunk part, it all just makes me sick now. Anytime I go to a party or get together I'm always singled out as the guy not drinking. It fucking pisses me off and I usually get bored and leave. I want to be able to have a good time and maybe meet a girl that isn't retarded or slutty as shit and eventually fall in love, but I don't see that happening any time soon either. So help me out here...I'm going nowhere!