I hate doing this, but he drives me to that point. He & I love each other. Very much. But there are things that cause us to grow apart. We each, like everyone, have personal challenges though ours might be considerably different than most. I'm narcoleptic & he's a crazed lunatic. lol. He grew up in a nasty area where he had to avoid getting noticed to avoid getting into fights. He suppresses his emotions like crazy & then when he gets really agitated he responds by flipping the fuck out & usually breaks shit. Anyway. I have one friend that I keep in close contact with, but she's now living a lifestyle that has her in the US for only about 3 months out of the year. She & I have been friends since jr high. Last night was her last day in the country - she departed today. He doesn't have any friends that he's close to besides me. There are 2 other people he can relate to some, but he talks with them very rarely & sees one of 'em maybe once a month. The other is one of his brothers & they work together but they just talk about hiking & trails they'd like to hit. Not much talkative shit. He & his bro have similar problems. It's typical for him to text me like crazy whenever the rare occasion that I leave to hang out with family or a friend without him. Except when I'm with my grandma. Last night was no exception - he did okay for a bit, but then the texts start trickling in & I can tell just by knowing him so well that he's gradually moving toward full on freakout. It gets to the point where I can't even keep up with reading his texts because he sends so damn many. All wanting to know who I'm with, if anyone has tried talking to me, if there have been any hugs at all ... ugh. So I put my foot down. Again. I don't want to deal with this every time I have a rare social outing. He's not social himself, doesn't like meeting people out anywhere. Just wants to go hiking. Some of my health issues have lead me to pass out & injure myself so I'm not too keen on it until I can get some treatment that will keep me from busting my bones. I'd love to join in the activity, but it's not a social one. I neeeeeeeed more socialization & I neeeeeed him to be willing to calm himself & try to get out a little bit more often. He pleaded that I not decide to end things. He doesn't want to. I don't want him driving me away any more, or else we'll ultimately end up separated. I'm not wearing his ring until we go to some lame couples counciling & try to sort this out. Still not sure if it will work out. Oh, goodie. He's all pissed again. Reacting to things I think are normal and necessary. This is never going to stop. He uses crazy person logic. Gawd I wish he'd just go make some friends to hang out with. I don't think I can stand being his only friend for the rest of my life.