So, here's the deal, and this is really new to me cause I'm not used to this shit. Background info: - Never really had any friends - One serious girlfriend that I lost my virginity to, then soon after broke up with her - Never have been loved, or been in love with someone - Got to college and met a bunch of people, now I am nothing like my highschool person. So here's the deal: One of my best friends introduced me to her roommate, and I sorta had a little crush on her. I talked to her about it to see what kind of person she was and what kind of guy she was into. Well, it didn't match who I was... so I backed off and went back on with my daily life. A few weeks later my friend came over with her roommate and we had a small little party with some people in my dorm. Well, things hit off well, and the roommate and I ended up hooking up and doing some stuff. At this point I didn't know if she really did like me, so I talked to her a bit the next day and we discussed some stuff. The week after, we did it again. Again the next week, and now we've come to this week. Apparently, she had been waiting for my phonecall yesterday and I never called, not because I didn't want to but because I didn't remember I told her I was going to call her. My friend came over and we talked about some stuff: and I feel that my stupidity and greed have gotten me into a situation where I'm not only fucking over my chance of a relationship, but I'm screwing over a friendship... one that I loved to have. So now here's my position: I am going to be talking to the roommate today to discuss some things. I feel like I need to cut everything off and start over from the beginning, but is this a bad idea? Should I just try to fix what we have now and pay more attention to her, or should I just cut it completely off? I mean... I don't think I even feel attracted to her anymore. I feel like a dick, and I haven't just done this to her, I've been extremely irritable to anything that the guys I live with do. I've been yelling at them, making fun of them, and just putting them down in general. I feel like there is something wrong with me, but I don't know why I'm doing it. I feel like a dumbass, and I don't know what to do to make it work out. I guess I'll just have to go with the flow. And it's great to mix all this shit with my 4 finals in the next 3 days. Great timing, right? Oh well, any suggestions will be helpful.