Oh my God, everything is spinning right now. I don't know what to do. First off my girlfriend which I spent every day with in the last month and love dearly, is gone for 2-3 weeks. We recently lost our virginity together and I love her so much. Today she phones me and says that her mom is trying to kick her out of her house. She's gone away to her dads and her mom is trying to get rid of her. She's now working but she's coming back to redue to her math exams, etc. So here I am missing her like crazy and now she may get kicked out of her house. However I still think that a real mother will not turn away her perfectly decent daughter when she comes home, but still it triggers lots of anxiety. About anxiety, I have 3 severe forms of it and this is driving me up the wall. Oh what else... I'm trying to get a job that would allow me and her to get an apartment. The whole proccess of trying to get the job is being not so nice either. I am dealing with my drug problems. I feel I smoke to much marijuana so I am stopping that. I didn't smoke at all yesterday for the first time in months. I stopped abusing ritalin and cough syrup months ago so this is a big step. But it's wreaking havoc because MJ is the only thing that really kills the anxiety. Without it I am here, taking 4x my percription of anxiety medication to try and calm myself down. I have a huge tolerance so overdose is definnitly not a concern but I am worried about why I have to do this right now. I'm gonna take a much needed vacation to visit old friends for a week. But I am still so worried and stressed out right now. I had thoughts about abusing cough syrup again, which landed me in a mental hospital last year. I am fighting it hard. God help me. My problems are small compared to others but my condition is killing me here. I had bouts of depression yesterday for the first time in a long time, since I'm on paxil. I am trying to think of soloutions. I think that if my girlfriend can get a job here, we will get an apartment together. And oh fuck, college is coming up too... I have a good idea what I want to do but still this is really stressfull. Any advice or support is much appreciated.