Six months ago my gf (of 2 years) left for the east coast to go to school. We had been having problems before she left and didn't leave on the very best of terms. I loved her, but I could not justify to myself going with her because of my doubts. She said we were on a break ugh: ) but I felt it was more permanent. We made love the night before she left and had a tearful goodbye. As the months have gone on I've found myself thinking less and less of her. We used to talk on the phone a lot...that slowly stopped, then texting...but that too has slowed to a trickle. Over this time I found myself rehashing the entire relationship, especially the run-up to her leaving. In fact, before she left I had pretty good evidence that she cheated on me while on an apartment finding trip before moving to the east coast. I should of ended it there, but I was love-blinded I guess. I've found myself starting to hate her, and now its as if I don't want to even see her. In the past 2 weeks, out of no where it seems, she has started texting and IM'ing me again saying that she misses me, and is looking forward to seeing me. Its as if I'm being buttered-up for her return. I haven't really fell for it, but it just keeps coming...even if I don't return the text (out of 8 I've only responded to 1...did NOT say I miss you back). Hell, one of her messages was "Are you ready for me to come back?" I'm just wondering what's going on. She comes back tomorrow and I'm not really sure how I'm going to react. I feel a lot of pain when I think about her...its as if the good parts of our relationship were replaced with my thinking about the bad (and oh, were they bad). I mean, does it sound like I was her back-up?