I'm 18, don't have any real "friends", just associates. I pretty much don't do shit all day except for work. I have absolutely no girlfriends, even though I want at least one. I'm very bored all the time. I have a very week relationship with family. I'm addicted to smoking. Can smoking have anything to do with depression? There are no physical problems with me, they are all mental and emotional. I think I have a very distorted self image. Some things I do... For some reason, I keep my arms crossed when I'm around people. I also have to stop every 5 minutes and evaluate how i'm doing around people. At work, we have meetings. I am very anxious and nervous at these meetings because there are 3 very attractive girls there. I answer questions in very shot replies. Like "yes, no, I don't know, maybe". I can't answer like an adult. I don't clean up after myself at home. I generally feel like a mess. I have a very distorted self image/social image. I can't pinpoint what my role is in social groups/what I look like to other people. I smoke everyday. Is this attractive to people at all? what does that say about a young kid who is smoking? I feel very skinny/weak. I have a big problem with carelessness. What I mean by this is that sometimes I fall into a state of carelessness and I just don't care about anything at all. Wow, what the hell is wrong with me?