heres my story that most of you have probably read already http://forums.offtopic.com/showthread.php?t=2892861 well anyway, a couple weeks ago i finally got up the courage to find a meeting...theres a nice place close to my work here that has em everyday all day pretty much...i picked thursdays at 7pm. (it said Beginers, etc..)...so last thursday i went and they were just finishing up the 12 steps...basicly they start the 12 steps on the first thursday of every month...1, 2, 3,...then next thursday, 4. 5. 6, and so on...so i kept my promise to go yesterday since they were starting all over. well step 1 was easy...realizing that i am powerless over alcohol and my life in unmanageable (well i manage my life ok it seems, but i have a dependency to alcohol). now step 2 and 3 are where im kinda stumpped...im not too religious or spiritual so i dont really know where to go with this...a power greater than myself can restore me to sanity...ok...now what do i do?...i used to go to church when i was younger but cause my mom made me...i never really cared for it...i do pray here and there and i consider myself a christian, but for the most part im not really spiritual......when we stood up and repeated step 2 and 3 and were supposed to say "yes" if we wanted to proceed, i did...but im not really sure what to do now....and now that i look over the rest of the steps im a little nervous...at first, last thursday when i walked in the meeting, i thought it was just an open discussion and all that...i didnt think i was gonna start the steps...they immeadeatly handed me this pamplet for the 12 steps and talked about it...i was kinda just like..."...ok..." anyway in the back of my mind, im excited about all this but also a little scared...last thursday after the meeting, my gf was so happy and proud of me, she said "lets go to the movies and ill pay!"...by this time it was almost 9pm and i hadnt had a drink...to tell you the truth i didnt feel bad or shakey or anything...we went to the movies, i ate nachos and popcorn, came home and went to bed...after i left that meeting i didnt really crave alcohol....and the same thing happend yesterday, after i left i wasnt hurting for a beer, and that made me excited...we went to olive garden and had a nice dinner...went home and went to sleep....any other night id be drinking beer up untill i went to bed. well i guess thats all for now...the main dude at that meeting, Don, suggested i go to other regular meetings during the week to listen to some hardcore drunk stories...im scared im gonna go and listen to them guys and be like "im no where near that bad, why am i even here?...i drink light beer after work and go to bed"..... oh well i guess this is gonna be good for me.