This is the first time I've had no special other person in my life for Xmas in 6-7 years. And it's causing me a lot of grief and distress. I couldn't care less about Xmas this year. I've bought gifts for my family and closest friends like usual, but really don't give a shit about xmas. If it didn't happen, I wouldn't miss it. Hell, if I just vanished into the forest, people wouldn't really notice me gone, either. I've developed a bad attitude the past 2-3 months, don't really give a fuck about what other people think, have made ignorant remarks and don't care who hears them. The only people I'm being civilized towards are my closest friends, family, and the ex. Everyone else can fuckoff and die, for all I care. I've stared to smoke a lot of weed (I smoked it once every few months before, but now it's a few times a week), and drink more. And I don't care. Anyone else getting the bad winter/Xmas depression?