Theres a demon that follows me. The first time I saw him I was tripping pretty hard on mushrooms, but his presence was felt before. After the drug use, his essence took form, and now he remains in my mind. He likes to convince me I'm going to fail. He likes to make me depressed. He tries to control my thoughts and emotions. I have faced him before, many times. When I do this he hides, and I am myself again. When I become vulnerable, he comes back. I know this is hard for you to understand, in fact you couldn't possibly understand unless you saw him, or felt him yourself. He is a dark hole in my personality. Sometimes I'll be in the best of moods, with all my friends, laughing about something...and all of a sudden the hair stands up on the back of my neck and I can feel the emptiness. Its like standing on the brink of a cliff and looking down. He has me by the ankle, and he weighs me down. I dont know why hes there, or where he came from. But he wants me to be worthless. I used to be this little smiling kid who didn't understand why people got depressed or furious. I used to not understand how someone wouldn't have self esteem or self confidence, I used to be flooding with self esteem. But this demon wont leave me alone. Hes pulling me down.