This girl could crush me like a bug if she wanted to, and I need to get these thoughts out... I've known her for over a year. Started as a friend. Feelings grew as I got to know her personality. Went on a date. She wasn't looking for a relationship at all. Wanted to stay friends with me. I told her I couldn't, that the feelings were too strong. I broke off all communication with her (twice, actually). And now she's back again... We were sposed to go to Tool before we broke-off for the second time, but it sold out. She found out I was going to Tool this next time, and it reminded her of us, so she wrote me a very hesitant email about coming with me to the show. Very guarded, like I could crush her. Since then, we've been talking more and more. I told her I want to see her before the show. She asked me if I like picnics, so I guess we're going on a picnic this weekend. I tell her she can pack me a sandwich and I'll teach her how to draw trees. We txt each other almost every day, one thing leads to another, and I'm talking about when I'm going to kiss her and how hard she's been on me. And she's says but you've never REALLY tried. And then she msgs me before bed and says goodnight (she has NEVER done this) and then says something about a sleep-over sometime soon. I'm in love with someone that, at one point, didn't have the same feelings. And probably still doesn't. And what she's doing is making me dizzy. She's 5'1", 100 pounds. I'm 6'4", 200 pounds... And she could cripple me with her pinky.