I really don't see the point to living anymore. I don't feel emotions anymore. Nothing excites or even vaguely interests me anymore. I just sit around, do my work, hang with friends, and sleep a lot (too much, I sleep when I'm bored even if I'm not tired). I have a near constant dull headache at the front of my head. I'm attending a good college and I have good grade so far (freshman). I have a lot of friends at school that I hang out a lot. I exercise everyday and eat fairly healthy. I have two loving parents. Yet I still don't see the point to keep going with my life. I have no passion for life anymore, it all seems so pointless and boring. None of my classes excite me, I've tried a lot of different clubs and none excite me. I feel absolutely no emotion anymore, I feel more like an emotionless sack of matter moving about its day. I still laugh and smile, but only because that has been conditioned into me, I still don't feel the real emotions. I would try to get a gf, but I look like I'm 14 when I'm actually 18 so that's basically impossible. Plus I'm incredibly shy when I first meet people and always get friendzoned. And I am so inexperienced. All my friends talk about their first hook up or first kiss or their 5th gf and I've had none of these. I've never been on a date(only thing close was prom, and the girl just used me to get into senior prom [she was a junior]), hell I've never even held hands with a girl. I don't believe in most religions (buddhism is the only one I kind of agree with). Honestly, the only thing that keeps me going is the thought of the pain my parents would feel if I were to end it all. Otherwise, nothing else really matters anymore. I feel so apathetic and emotionless. Nothing traumatic has happened to me recently. I feel very stuck also. I don't feel like I'm going anywhere with my life. Sure, I will probably graduate with a high gpa, go to grad school, and get a decent-good job, but so what? Don't tell me to go volunteer, I've heard that one many times, I don't even believe in most volunteer organizations. They're only reducing the symptoms when we need to fix the causes, that's the only way something will ever be solved. Plus, I've always been a helpful person and even that doesn't give me any sense of satisfaction or warm fuzzy feeling anymore. Fuck.