I'm just speaking my mind. There is no purpose to this thread. I've already made an appointment to see a psychiatrist (potential prescription) for the first time in my life coming this Tuesday around noon. Primary reasons: laziness & occasional stupidity. These two things constantly give me problems. I logically understand that I need to correct em, but when it comes down to it, I fumble and fuck up. I quit my last job at the end of July because I was about to get fired. I had that job for 4 months, the job before that, 2 months, job before that, 2 months.... I usually hold onto a job between 2-6 months. Best way I can explain it, is that my mind cares, but my body doesn't. I procrastinate heavily when waking up, extremely tired, regardless of how much sleep I get, which constantly gets me in trouble for being late. I seem to not know what to do at work at times, causing me to constantly seek help from coworkers and superiors as well as going slow. I don't think myself as stupid, but at times I don't know how else to describe it. College classes I've failed, English I & II, Art Appreciation, Humanities, Intro to Ethics. I currently have only 30 college credits. I retook all but one of these classes and barely passed em. The only explanation I can think of, is that it bores the shit out of me, preventing me from focusing on it, more importantly I'm too lazy to try. No friends, never socialized with the opposite sex. Failed my junior year of high school intentionally after finally noticing that primary education is not perpetual and not knowing what I was going to do after high school (I graduated on time[many summer school classes]). Most depressing moment which may be a bit obvious - 4 months Marine Corps Boot Camp. I'm of Ethiopian descent, 6'5", 185lbs. God I made such a mistake joining the Marine Reserves. I should have committed to college instead. Being so skinny and not having an aesthetically pleasing American face contributes to myself not having confidence or self-esteem. I understand logically what is wrong with me, but do not have the willpower to correct myself when action is necessary. I can not move forward in life until I figure out how to get past this obstacle.