well, im now officially divorced as of 930 this morning. ive not felt one inkling of depression in a month, but today, im feeling fairly shitty. ive had 0 contact with my exwife, save yesterday afternoon when i scheduled with her to meet her to exchange the last bits of items that belong to her or belong to me. im meeting her today at her apartment at 6pm, and i intend to make it as brief as i can possibly make it, i wont care to discuss anything other than legal and business. ive been so strong for myself lately, i just cant see where this came from. i suppose the finality of it all is what brought it, the shame that we let such a good thing go to waste. i sat in the courtroom with my attorney and at least 10 other divorce cases came up before mine. i felt sorry for the judge, what a shitty job to have to sever marriages all day long. only 2 couples actually showed up, all the rest (myself included) were just one spouse, and i assume the respondent just signed the court waiver. ive been seeing a girl the past 3 weeks. she's really nice and intelligent, and i absolutely look forward to the next time we see each other, and im always delighted to answer the phone when she calls. but when we kiss, i dont feel the exploding fireworks. her lips are so unbelievably soft and i cant resist stealing kisses, but im wondering if im not feeling it because im still getting over my ex. right now i dont feel any desire to speak to, or take care of or provide for my ex at all, i can barely remember her face or the sound of her voice. however, after all ive been thru, just meeting a woman who likes talking to me, going out with me, kissing me, is truly a relief. makes me not feel quite do damaged.