So ive been talking alot with my ex. One of the things she has told me is right now she cant be with me becuase she doesnt trust me. Here is the story, but I just want to say that I know what I did and take full responceability and that even though I was in a blind rage I dont use it as an excuse and im trying going to see councliers and stuff about this as well as anger managment. All started last november. Me and like 4-5 friends were playing touc football on out basketball court at my dorm. My g/f was wanting to do soemthing else and got seriously pissed I wasnt paying attention to her. So she comes and askes me to take her home, I tell her ok. We get there and she tells me shes ending it becuase of tonight. I get mad and as soon as she closes the door pell out and shit. She calls me 15 minutes later cuase she was sorry and irrational at the time, but im mad and dont answer. Next day my roommate lets her into my dorm room, and me I try to hide from her, end up getting outta bed (I was depressed and been watching tv all day) go to storm out of the room, she goes to the door and tries to keep me from leaving but Im considerably stronger and I without flinching open the door and fling it back along with her. She tells me she cant ever trust me becuase of this and I dont blame her. I want to regain her trust becuase I honestly love her. This is just a rant, I found this out today and cant get it off my mind, just wanting to tell someone who isnt involved in our situation. I know that I have alot of work to do to repair this but im willing. I just hope my ex will see this and in the future be able to see if I have changed or not and trust me with her again.